Thursday, May 23, 2013
Friday, May 17, 2013
Love is Love Hop Against Homophobia and Transphobia
Over the last year there have been many improvements in the fight against homophobia and transphobia. There are still hateful people out there, but the number of people against hate is growing. States actually recognize gay marriage. However, there is still hate. People are still beat up for no reason other than they want/desire someone of the same sex. When you take a step back, looking at the actions of homophobics, you see that their actions are full of hate. I don't have a great story this year or much to say except love is love.
This post struck me today. It's originally on Tumbler but I've posted it here. It broke my heart. This woman isn't wrong/broke/evil. She is normal, just like all gay and lesbians are just normal people who want the same rights as everyone else. Here's the link to the article.
http://missmutton.tumblr.com/post/50636487896/lexuswillow-this-is-an-old-family-picture-my
May 17 is International day against Homophobia and Transphobia.
The main Hop page is here.
I'll be giving away a copy of an ebook from my backlist to one lucky commenter.
This post struck me today. It's originally on Tumbler but I've posted it here. It broke my heart. This woman isn't wrong/broke/evil. She is normal, just like all gay and lesbians are just normal people who want the same rights as everyone else. Here's the link to the article.
http://missmutton.tumblr.com/post/50636487896/lexuswillow-this-is-an-old-family-picture-my
This is an old family picture.
My family does not support my being in the LGBTQIA community. They actually are opposed to it. They tell me every day that its disgusting and that it’s sinful and I’ll go to hell for liking women.
I moved out when I was seventeen, and in January I moved back in with them because I couldn’t handle everything that was going on. Every day one of my five siblings tells me to go back to Minnesota. My little brother Charlie (the black baby in the picture) is now 8 and he constantly physically attacks me and tells me that I’m not his sister and to leave. My other siblings make it very obvious and clear that they don’t want me here and my parents tell me constantly that they’re gonna kick me out soon.
I’ve been saving every penny for a bus ticket to Oregon to stay with my best friend and today I found this picture in my sisters’ room ON DISPLAY. Not hidden. On display. They cut my face out of the picture.
I moved out when I was seventeen, and in January I moved back in with them because I couldn’t handle everything that was going on. Every day one of my five siblings tells me to go back to Minnesota. My little brother Charlie (the black baby in the picture) is now 8 and he constantly physically attacks me and tells me that I’m not his sister and to leave. My other siblings make it very obvious and clear that they don’t want me here and my parents tell me constantly that they’re gonna kick me out soon.
I’ve been saving every penny for a bus ticket to Oregon to stay with my best friend and today I found this picture in my sisters’ room ON DISPLAY. Not hidden. On display. They cut my face out of the picture.
And that… That was just the last straw.
I don’t care if anyone reblogs this or whatever, I don’t wanna get popular, I just want people to know that this is not what a family looks like. This is not something people should have to go through.
This is no life.I don’t care if anyone reblogs this or whatever, I don’t wanna get popular, I just want people to know that this is not what a family looks like. This is not something people should have to go through.
May 17 is International day against Homophobia and Transphobia.
The main Hop page is here.
I'll be giving away a copy of an ebook from my backlist to one lucky commenter.
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Tuesday, May 14, 2013
IRM Anthologies - It's been a great year!
A little over a year ago a few authors said What if? We didn't stay at the pie in the sky stage for long but began actually planning what would later become four anthologies produced by IRM. I took the lead; becoming editor, cover artist, and publisher for all four books. The experience has been bittersweet, painful, beautiful, exhausting, and wonderful. I've lost sleep, pulled my hair out, cried and laughed over these books.

In the wonderful category, Winter Heat won Best Anthology of 2012. I'm so proud of the authors from Winter Heat. I can't express how amazing it was for a book I edited to win this award. As an author, I'm stoked that my story, Changing Currency, was part of an anthology that won Best Anthology. If you haven't taken the time to read Winter Heat you should, it really is a great collection of stories that will warm your heart.
In this process I've been able to work with some great authors. I've become close to many of you and can't wait to see you at the next author event. Many of the authors have become fast friends who I depend on and enjoy chatting with. They've brightened my horizons and made this experience worthwhile.
Tomorrow the fourth and final anthology that we began planning over a year ago will be available. I'm glad that this stage is done, a little sad that it's over, but relieved that I won't have to go through producing another book this way again.
To all of the authors who have participated, thank you for trusting me with your story. A Shot at Forever, my contribution to Men of Honor, is about love, loss and maybe finding something great. My portion of the royalties from Men of Honor will be donated to a local charity that focuses on helping military guys and giving them support. I hope you enjoy Men of Honor.
Purchase Men of Honor at Amazon, ARE

In the wonderful category, Winter Heat won Best Anthology of 2012. I'm so proud of the authors from Winter Heat. I can't express how amazing it was for a book I edited to win this award. As an author, I'm stoked that my story, Changing Currency, was part of an anthology that won Best Anthology. If you haven't taken the time to read Winter Heat you should, it really is a great collection of stories that will warm your heart.
In this process I've been able to work with some great authors. I've become close to many of you and can't wait to see you at the next author event. Many of the authors have become fast friends who I depend on and enjoy chatting with. They've brightened my horizons and made this experience worthwhile.
Tomorrow the fourth and final anthology that we began planning over a year ago will be available. I'm glad that this stage is done, a little sad that it's over, but relieved that I won't have to go through producing another book this way again.
To all of the authors who have participated, thank you for trusting me with your story. A Shot at Forever, my contribution to Men of Honor, is about love, loss and maybe finding something great. My portion of the royalties from Men of Honor will be donated to a local charity that focuses on helping military guys and giving them support. I hope you enjoy Men of Honor.
Purchase Men of Honor at Amazon, ARE
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Surrendered to Him by Sara York
This week Promoted by the Billionaire released. Surrendered to him is my contribution to this amazing
anthology. If you haven't picked up this book yet, you can get it at Amazon, ARE, or TEB
'Surrendered To Him' by Sara York
When the storm hits, everything changes. Will shifting priorities lead to a shift in life, or will Storm Bennett abandon his heart's desires?
Storm rules the Bennett Empire with an iron fist, never taking time to allow emotions into his life, leaving him looking like the bad guy in the media over and over again. When a typhoon hits the island where one of his hotels is located, he sees it as a chance to repair his damaged reputation.
On the island, nothing is as it should be. Storm meets Keoni, a native, who challenges everything Storm knows about relationships, family and love. Keoni is blown away by Storm but wants the man so badly he can taste it.
Can he risk his newfound peace, giving a part of himself to Storm, or will he stay detached, allowing love to slip away?
Excerpt: Storm cleared his throat and moved towards the bathroom. He turned around to ask where the towels were but Keoni was right there. For a short second fear filled Storm, then Keoni was touching him, his hand on Storm’s waist, pulling them closer. Their lips met in a fevered kiss. Storm pressed his chest against Keoni’s, loving the height of the man and his muscular bulk. Storm was thin with lean muscles, Keoni was big, his body filled with little dips and valleys from his ripped form.
Keoni pushed him backwards into the bathroom and shut the door. He had Storm pressed against the wall, his hips rocking forward slightly, causing their hardened dicks to rub against each other.
The kiss ended and Storm gasped, breathing fast as he searched Keoni’s eyes. The low light from the window was enough for him to see the passion and lust. Slowly, Keoni moved his fingers to the top of Storm’s pants. With deliberate moves he undid the snap then placed his fingers on the zipper. They stared at each other for a long moment before Keoni lowered the zip, pushing Storm’s pants over his rear. The material dropped to the floor. Storm kicked off his shoes and pushed his pants to the side. He stood in his underwear and socks, his breathing erratic as Keoni traced his ribs then moved to the bones of his hips.
“If you want me to stop, I will,” Keoni whispered.
“No. I want this.” Storm ran his hand down Keoni’s torso, stopping at his belly button. “You are so beautiful.”
They kissed again, this time it was less desperate, smoother and in control. Keoni grabbed hold of Storm’s wrists and lifted his arms over his head, stretching him out. He wanted to fight the hold, to break free and command the situation, but Keoni was the one in charge. Keoni broke the kiss and lowered his head to Storm’s pec, kissing all around, moving towards his pit. Keoni drew in a deep breath and moaned.
“Fuck, you smell good. I bet you taste good too.” Keoni slid his tongue from Storm’s underarm to his nipple, then swirled around the nub before covering it with his mouth and sucking.
Purchase Promoted by the Billionaire at Amazon, ARE, or TEB
anthology. If you haven't picked up this book yet, you can get it at Amazon, ARE, or TEB
'Surrendered To Him' by Sara York
When the storm hits, everything changes. Will shifting priorities lead to a shift in life, or will Storm Bennett abandon his heart's desires?
Storm rules the Bennett Empire with an iron fist, never taking time to allow emotions into his life, leaving him looking like the bad guy in the media over and over again. When a typhoon hits the island where one of his hotels is located, he sees it as a chance to repair his damaged reputation.
On the island, nothing is as it should be. Storm meets Keoni, a native, who challenges everything Storm knows about relationships, family and love. Keoni is blown away by Storm but wants the man so badly he can taste it.
Can he risk his newfound peace, giving a part of himself to Storm, or will he stay detached, allowing love to slip away?
Excerpt: Storm cleared his throat and moved towards the bathroom. He turned around to ask where the towels were but Keoni was right there. For a short second fear filled Storm, then Keoni was touching him, his hand on Storm’s waist, pulling them closer. Their lips met in a fevered kiss. Storm pressed his chest against Keoni’s, loving the height of the man and his muscular bulk. Storm was thin with lean muscles, Keoni was big, his body filled with little dips and valleys from his ripped form.
Keoni pushed him backwards into the bathroom and shut the door. He had Storm pressed against the wall, his hips rocking forward slightly, causing their hardened dicks to rub against each other.
The kiss ended and Storm gasped, breathing fast as he searched Keoni’s eyes. The low light from the window was enough for him to see the passion and lust. Slowly, Keoni moved his fingers to the top of Storm’s pants. With deliberate moves he undid the snap then placed his fingers on the zipper. They stared at each other for a long moment before Keoni lowered the zip, pushing Storm’s pants over his rear. The material dropped to the floor. Storm kicked off his shoes and pushed his pants to the side. He stood in his underwear and socks, his breathing erratic as Keoni traced his ribs then moved to the bones of his hips.
“If you want me to stop, I will,” Keoni whispered.
“No. I want this.” Storm ran his hand down Keoni’s torso, stopping at his belly button. “You are so beautiful.”
They kissed again, this time it was less desperate, smoother and in control. Keoni grabbed hold of Storm’s wrists and lifted his arms over his head, stretching him out. He wanted to fight the hold, to break free and command the situation, but Keoni was the one in charge. Keoni broke the kiss and lowered his head to Storm’s pec, kissing all around, moving towards his pit. Keoni drew in a deep breath and moaned.
“Fuck, you smell good. I bet you taste good too.” Keoni slid his tongue from Storm’s underarm to his nipple, then swirled around the nub before covering it with his mouth and sucking.
Purchase Promoted by the Billionaire at Amazon, ARE, or TEB
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Fly to Him by J.P. Bowie
"Fly to Him" by J.P. Bowie - part of the exciting new anthology Promoted by the Billionaire released Monday 29th April:
Blurb:
A young flight attendant gets a billionaire’s attention in a way that could have meant the end of his career, but instead could be the beginning of an unexpected romance.
When Kevin Tate takes over for a friend as flight attendant on billionaire Logan Maguire’s private jet, he is certain it will be his one and only time aboard when he accidentally dumps an ice-cold drink on his employer’s lap. Instead, an instant attraction flares between the two men and Kevin accepts Logan’s offer to stay with him at his villa in Puerta Vallarta.
Their fledgling romance is abruptly brought to an end when Logan hurries back to the States on a desperate mission to save his company from a hostile takeover. Kevin is left wondering if success and wealth is more important to the billionaire than the chance of love and real happiness.
Reader Advisory: This story is also released as part of the Promoted by the Billionaire anthology by Total-E-Bound
Purchase Promoted by the Billionaire at TEB Amazon ARE
J.P. is giving away a copy of Fly to Him if you go to his blog and leave a comment http://wwwjpbowie.blogspot.com/
Monday, April 29, 2013
Flowers for Him Marie Sexton and Rowan Speedwell
Promoted by the Billionaire was released today! There are some great authors and great stories in this anthology. First is Marie Sexton and Rowan Speedwell with Flowers for him. They've included an excerpt for your pleasure. You can purchase Promoted by the Billionaire at TEB ARE Amazon
Blurb: Billionaire
Chandler Harrison’s third marriage is now history, and he’s left with his
ex-wife’s parting barb, “You have no appreciation of beauty.” Determined to
prove her wrong, Chandler hires artist Neil Sweeney to add a mural to his
office wall. He doesn’t even care what the picture is, as long as it’s
beautiful.
Neil
Sweeney is an ex-tagger, a free spirit, and a bit of a hippie. He’s never met
anybody as uptight as Chandler, but when it comes to warming up Chandler’s
cold, stark office, Neil has plans involving more than art.
Chandler
begins to find himself strangely moved by the mural developing on his office
wall. He’s especially moved by the artist himself. Chandler has denied his
homosexual urges for most of his life, but it isn’t long before Neil begins
introducing Chandler to all kinds of new things. As Neil’s masterpiece comes to
life, so does Chandler’s appreciation for art, color, and the best kind of
beauty of all -- love.
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Excerpt: I had no explanation for the way it made me feel,
watching Neil work. Watching those shapes emerge on the wall. If it was a
picture, it was nothing I could identify. Long, strangely curving lines, and
yet they called to me. Much as the artist himself called to me. He’d roused
something deep in my psyche—a remembrance of things past, gone but never
forgotten.
The day after that peculiar conversation—why had I let
myself talk that much?—I worked all morning as usual, trying to ignore Neil,
but by mid-afternoon, I’d grown restless and curious as to what those odd,
compelling charcoal shapes were supposed to be. I left my desk to get a better
view, crossing the room to stand at the end of the boardroom table.
Being closer didn’t help. Not only were the shapes
still unidentifiable, but the effect was more pronounced.
I watched him sketch the lines on the wall, his hands
creating something out of nothing, caressing the coloured blankness into form.
His movements were captivating. Almost amorous. I began to notice other things,
too. The way his threadbare T-shirt stretched across his shoulders as he
reached higher. The way his pants accentuated his backside when he bent
forward. The way the tip of his tongue sometimes moistened his lower lip as he
focused on his art. Watching him was intoxicating.
“Is something wrong?” he asked, suddenly turning to
face me.
Heat rose quickly in my cheeks. I became aware of the
way my heart seemed to be beating too soft and too fast. Of the surprising
warmth in my groin.
“N-no,” I stumbled. “Nothing’s wrong.”
And yet, as he looked at me, I had a feeling he knew
what was happening to me. He somehow knew that my palms were beginning to
sweat, and that my mouth was going dry. “It’s sensual, isn’t it?”
My pulse raced faster, and I had to clear my throat to
ask, “Sensual?” My voice caught on the word. Images flashed through my
mind—bare skin and bodies entwined. The feeling of flesh against flesh. The way
he held his charcoal pencil.
He took a step towards me.
Then another.
“Yeah. Art is a lot like sex. It’s intimate and
personal. It’s about being laid bare. About pushing boundaries. It’s about
making our senses come alive.” Another step, and I backed up and ran into the
boardroom table. “Sensual,” he went on, smiling at me in a way that made me
feel like he was a cat and I was a mouse. “In fact, painting always turns me on
a bit, you know? Leaves me feeling…” One more step, and he was right in front
of me, so close I could see the paint specks on his glasses. I could see that
his eyes were green, and even I couldn’t deny what they were telling me.
“Feeling how?” My voice was hoarse and husky, and his
smile became almost predatory.
“Horny as hell, to be honest.” He took the last step,
leaving us chest to chest. “Like you.”
“No—” I tried to say.
But then he kissed me.
For a moment, I couldn’t move. I could only stand
there with the table digging into the backs of my thighs as his lips caressed
mine. I didn’t want to do this. I didn’t want to kiss a man. I wasn’t gay.
But even as I thought it, I felt his hands on my hips,
urging me closer. He smelled like paint and something else—something I couldn’t
identify that was both masculine and herbal—and without ever deciding to, I
reached up to cup his cheeks in my hands and I found myself kissing him back.
His lips were warm as they parted under mine. It was
an invitation, and I hesitated, feeling that if I took this step, I’d never be
able to turn back. I could still push him away. I could still say it was a
mistake. But then he put his hand behind my neck to pull me closer, and I
tumbled into the abyss.
He was sweet, and minty, and I heard myself moan. I
wondered briefly how this could be happening, but the thought was fleeting,
lost in the euphoria of his taste. I put my arms around his waist and pulled
him close, revelling in the solid warmth of his body against me. His hands in
my hair. His breath against my lips. I wanted more—I demanded more—and he gave
it, tilting his head back to let me take complete possession of his mouth—to
claim it as my own. But if this was a contest, the victor wouldn’t be decided
so easily. As quickly as he’d ceded control to me, he took it back.
I felt a moment of panic as the tables turned. His
arms tightened around my neck and he pulled himself up to my height, kissing me
hard, crushing my lips. I realised with some alarm that he had an erection and
my body immediately began to respond in kind.
It was one of the most arousing things I’d ever
experienced, hardening against him, knowing the bulge opposite mine was his
cock. The thought made me desperate and I reached down to grab his ass so I
could pull him harder against me. He moaned as I rubbed my erection harder on
his through our pants. Such a simple, innocent pleasure, but it made me
frantic. It was a flashback to my youth. I felt young again, a horny
nineteen-year-old stealing a few minutes of passion. I humped my hips wildly
against him, and he was right there with me, his fingers digging into my back
as we rode each other, gasping as we fought to keep kissing through our
writhing.
He let go of me and began fumbling with my pants. He
tore them open, then looked down and laughed. “Jesus, Chandler. Boxers? You’re
full of surprises, aren’t you?”
I couldn’t answer. I could only moan as he slid his
hand inside them to grip my cock. His fingers were so warm and soft, and I put
my head on his shoulder and shuddered at the pleasure of him stroking my
length.
I’m not
gay. I’m not gay. But it was useless. I thrust my hips forward, sliding
my aching cock through his tight fist. Three wives and a handful of girlfriends
in between, but I wasn’t sure I’d ever felt as desperate as I did at that
moment. I’d never wanted anybody the way I wanted him. The problem was, I had
no idea what to do. There were no breasts to reach for, no nipples to thumb. I
couldn’t even begin to think about what sex would entail.
“Undo my pants,” he said as he stroked me. “Christ,
Chandler, undo my pants!”
I did, although my hands shook. I pulled his fly open
and cupped his bulge in my hand. It was hot and solid against my palm and he
moaned and pulled me into a kiss.
I was afraid to do anything but touch him through his
briefs. I’d had another man’s naked cock in my hand before. I remembered with
blinding clarity how tantalising it had felt, but that had been a lifetime ago.
I wasn’t ready for it again—not yet, at any rate—so I settled for cupping his
hard bulge. My heart raced at the way he thrust toward me as I began to caress
him, exploring the hardness of his cock and the soft warmth of his balls. I
wanted to memorise every nuance of the silky fabric stretching across his
erection, holding him just out of reach.
He groaned in frustration and pushed me back as he
dropped to his knees, pulling my boxers out of the way.
I managed to say, “Oh God,” before he swallowed my
length, moaning as he did. I had to fight hard not to come right then. It would
have been easy to let go, but whatever this was, whatever madness had seized
me, I wasn’t ready for it to end. I wanted this bliss to last forever, my hands
tangled in his hair and my sex sliding through his lips, but his mouth was too
sweet, too hot, too insistent. I grabbed a handful of his hair and pulled him
away. It was rude of me, I knew, but I needed more time.
“Wait,” I gasped. “Not yet.”
Rowan Speedwell avoids dealing with reality as much as possible, but sometimes it finds her no matter how far or fast she runs. She likes angst and drama in books, where they belong, and prefers sunshine, rainbows, and lollipops. She has not listened to pop music since 1984, when she saw the movie The Terminator and was frightened back into her shell.
Rowan lives east of the sun and west of the moon, with her Cat, Kimball O’Hara ('Supreme Overlord of the Wasted Lands'). She doesn’t believe in telephones or television, although people assure her frequently that they do exist.
You can find Rowan at www.rowanspeedwell.com, or email her at rowan.speedwell@gmail.com.
Marie Sexton lives in Colorado. She’s
a fan of just about anything that involves muscular young men piling on top of
each other. In particular, she loves the Denver Broncos and enjoys going to the
games with her husband. Her imaginary friends often tag along. Marie has one
daughter, two cats, and one dog, all of whom seem bent on destroying what
remains of her sanity. She loves them anyway.
Visit Marie’s website at http://mariesexton.net/,
or join her for Coffee and Porn in the Morning at http://cupoporn.wordpress.com/.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
First part of Forever Yours, Faithfully
I'm very excited about this book. I love these characters! Greg and Randy are my favorite!
Purchase at MLR Press
Excerpt
Purchase at MLR Press
Excerpt
Chapter
One
The scent of fresh cut grass wafted
across the field, following the boys as they ran, chasing the soccer ball from
one goal to the other, trying like crazy to score. Randy Williams wanted to
join in, always had, but saying he had two left feet was putting it nicely.
Awkward was his comfort zone, and if by some minor miracle he happened to have
a moment of cool moves, it surely meant he was about to find himself face first
in the mud. Ever since he'd started growing, his arms and legs had betrayed
him, leaving him unable to coordinate his body without extreme effort. Of
course everyone told him he'd grow into his height, but at seventeen, he didn't
want to hear how he would eventually get used to his limbs, he wanted to be
smooth and cool. Someone others would look at with attraction firing in their
eyes, someone like Greg Scott.
No one used ungainly, clumsy,
klutzy, gawky, or ungraceful to describe Greg. Of course the words other kids
used to describe Randy weren't quite so nice, well except Greg. Greg was always
nice to him even when he didn't need to be. Greg was the main reason he was
here. If asked, he'd use the excuse of needing the sun, or maybe he was meeting
a friend and he picked the soccer field, or it was peace and quiet—that was
always a hard sell, but the real reason was Greg. It was always Greg.
The ball soared towards him and he
ducked, covering his face and head with his arms, sure that if he didn't hide, the
ball would smash him in the face. The thud next to him scared the crap out of
him and he jumped, almost falling off the bench. He grabbed on tight to the
metal seat, his breath coming in gasps as he looked up, searching for who had
shot the ball at him.
Greg.
The air grew thick and his lungs
stalled as the object of his desire neared, coming closer with each passing
second. The boys were playing shirts versus skins. Of course the beautiful
Gregory Scott had been chosen for the skins team. The boy had muscles like
nobody's business and all Randy wanted to do was make it his business.
"Hey Randy, sorry about
that." Greg ran up the bleachers, stopping right in front of him, placing
one foot on the bench next to Randy's foot, almost brushing their shoes
together. The smile on Greg's face could light up a dark cave. The wind blew
over his sweat soaked skin, sending the scent straight to Randy's nose. He
groaned, praying Greg couldn’t see how turned on he was. Of course that made
Randy blush, and unlike Greg the god, Randy's skin was about the color of cooked
egg whites, maybe a shade darker, but he wasn't sure anyone else could see the
difference. Unless of course he was blushing, then he turned redder than a
shiny new apple.
"It's okay. Here you go."
Randy picked up the ball and handed it to Greg. Their fingers brushed against
each other and a thousand pinpricks danced over his skin. His heart hammered
and his head spun. His eyes widened and their gazes caught, they stared at each
other for a beat longer than necessary, long enough for Randy to feel like
something special had passed between them.
Greg stepped back, glancing over
his shoulder at the boys on the field. "Come on. Play with me."
"What?" Randy squeaked.
His gaze darted around making sure no one else heard anything.
Greg's lips turned up in a lopsided
smile, his eyelids closing halfway. "Soccer, come play soccer with
me."
There was no mistaking the
attraction sizzling between them. Real fear filled Randy now. No one could
know. Fuck, they all suspected, but suspecting and knowing were two different
things.
"I don't—"
"Oh no, you don't get to say
no. We need another player. Come on." Greg grabbed his hand, tugging him
out of the stands and onto the field. Randy towered over Greg by a good four
inches. "We're skins," Greg said as he grabbed Randy's shirt and
tugged, exposing his belly.
Randy stiffened, his arms wrapping
protectively around his sides, holding his shirt close. "No, I
can't."
Greg looked up at him, batting his
eyelashes in such an alluring way Randy would have done anything for the guy. Greg
lifted one eyebrow, merriment twinkling in his eyes. Randy sucked in a breath
and lifted his arms. Greg pushed Randy's shirt up and pulled it over his head.
Randy swore he heard Greg suck in a breath, but he had to be imagining it. They
were worlds apart. Greg had muscles that were tanned, his torso sloped into a
V. His skin was beautiful and hairless. Randy bet that if he touched Greg, the
guy would feel like silk. He, on the other hand, was a skinny stick, straight
as a beanpole. He had a smattering of hair on his body and a thick patch of
dark black hair that ran from his bellybutton down below his waistband and then
lower. Randy wondered what Greg's hand would feel like running through that
hair. He gritted his teeth and took a step back, trying like hell to get his
reactions under control.
"Come on, let's play."
Greg turned and walked away.
A bead of sweat ran down his back,
his body already overheating. Randy kept his eyes on Greg's back as he stumbled
out onto the field. He didn't want to embarrass himself so he looked away and
gulped. Eleven other guys watched him, their eyes narrowed as he approached. No
one said anything. His heart was in his throat and he thought tossing his
cookies would be appropriate. Of course he'd not eaten since lunch so he had
nothing in him to toss so he was safe on that account, but in terms of playing
soccer, he was screwed.
He turned to Greg, ready to leave,
when Greg shot him a magnificent smile that turned his body inside out. Almost
blinded by Greg's radiance, he found himself smiling stupidly, waiting for Greg
to tell him what to do.
"Let's play." Greg tossed
the ball in the air and the other boys whooped and hollered.
Randy had watched soccer, even
played when he was six and his mother forced him out onto the field, but even
then he was more interested in the other boys than the game. He tried
desperately to follow what was going on, luckily the ball stayed on the other
side of the field for the longest time. He was able to watch Greg move across
the grass, his body honed to a perfect performance machine, bending and
twisting when needed, perfectly balanced and totally beautiful.
Suddenly he found himself in the
middle of the fray, the ball at his feet. He kicked the ball and ran up the
field toward his goal—he'd been paying enough attention to get that right—his
arms held loose at his sides as he raced forward, his long legs allowing him to
cover a huge distance. Midway up the field to the goal another boy challenged
him, but he skirted around him, the ball still under his control. A funny
feeling hit him in the pit of his stomach as he approached the goal. Good lord,
was he going to score?
He raced forward, his eyes darting
to the left and the right, amazed that there was no one near. How had he outrun
them all? Maybe his height was an advantage. He turned his head enough to look
back over his shoulder. That had been his first mistake. Had he kept running
straight, everything would have been fine. The first indication of failure came
when he had to swing his arm wide to keep from losing his balance. Then he
missed a step, his foot coming down hard in the wrong direction. His knees went
wild and he felt all wobbly. The ball connected with his foot, but he wasn't
ready to punt it in. Everything went to hell. He flailed his arms, but that
didn't help.
Suddenly he was on his back,
staring up at the sky, noticing for the first time that if he squinted he could
see stars in the middle of the day. Greg was there, laughing above him. Then
the rest of the boys gathered around, their laughter like tiny pinpricks on his
skin, hurting enough to wound.
"Fuck, that was great Randy.
You scored."
His brows pinched together as
Greg's words sunk in. "What?"
"Game winning goal," one
of the other boys shouted.
"You coming, Greg?"
someone yelled.
"Go ahead. I'll be around in a
bit."
The rest of the boys took off
across the field and Greg plunked down on the grass beside him. Greg carded his
fingers through his dark hair, his gaze everywhere but on Randy. Randy knew he
should sit up but he liked lying on his back next to Greg. It felt intimate,
almost like they were together and he wasn't just lying on the field because
he'd had a Randy moment and fell on
his ass.
He studied the object of his
interest, noticing the thin scar on his right side below his ribs and another
scar under his chin. The desire to touch the scars wove through Randy, leaving
him gasping for breath.
Greg looked down, his gaze
connected with Randy's. They stared at each other for a long moment. The world
melted away as they shared secrets in that stare. A cold wind blew across the
field and over his body, cooling him through and through. He shivered and Greg
leaned closer, his hand almost touching Randy's arm. Greg flicked his gaze lower,
licking his lips as he took in the rest of Randy's physique. Their gaze
connected again and Greg quirked a smile, only the left side of his mouth
curving up, leaving him looking more like a rakish devil than a high school
boy.
"Come on. I'm starving."
Greg jumped up and held out his hand, his fingers lingering longer than
necessary on Randy's wrist before dropping the connection. Greg took off toward
Randy's book bag, his gait confident.
Randy didn't know what to say or
do. The whole reason he did his homework in the stands of the soccer field was
to watch Greg run around half naked in his short yellow athletic shorts and
Nike shoes. Never in a million years had he believed that the guy was
interested in him. Randy glanced over at Greg, making sure he was still there.
Greg caught his movement and winked, his fingers brushing over Randy's as they
walked side by side.
He started shaking, wondering if
Greg was playing him. Hell, he'd been hiding behind a wall of indifference,
dating in groups but never kissing a girl. He always picked socially awkward
girls, ones no other boys wanted to date. Another criteria he had for dating
was the girl had to be a dedicated Christian. Not that her salvation was of any importance to him, but Christian girls
wouldn't be as likely to want sex and there was no way he could do that with a
girl. Of course thinking about sex with Greg standing right beside him made him
feel funny and he feared embarrassing himself.
He looked away then ran the last
few steps to his bag, trying to get away from the halo of allure surrounding
Greg.
"By the way, thanks."
Greg's voice slid over him, warming him from the inside out.
Randy fisted his shirt and turned,
gasping as he saw the heat in Greg's gaze. "For what?"
"Playing."
"Sure."
"I mean you did score the game
winning goal and with style like I've never seen." Greg snickered, his
eyes twinkling with merriment. "I was just trying to get you out of your
shirt."
The air grew too thin to breathe.
Randy felt light headed. Then he remembered they were in public and he glanced
around nervously, making sure no one had heard them.
"Relax, no one is out here.
I've been watching you for a while, but I swear I thought you didn't like me at
all."
Randy plopped down on the bench,
his head between his knees as he sucked in air, praying that what Greg was
saying was true and not just another boy trying to tease him.
Greg sat down next to him, his
fingers skimming Randy's knee. "Hey, are you okay?"
Randy's head shot up which was a
mistake. He was already dizzy and looking around half crazed wasn't good.
"Greg, I'm… Fuck." He
screwed up his face, confusion filling him. "Are you gay?"
Panic filled Greg's face and he
backed away. He glanced around nervously, his face going pale. "I thought
you were."
Randy reached out, placing his hand
on Greg's arm. "I am. I just didn't think…didn't dream that you would be… Are
you?"
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